"I'd like to think the best of me is still hiding up my sleeve" -John Mayer
This past week was a half birthday- 28 and a half. And let's face it, 28.5 is no longer young and hip - it's approaching middle-aged.
This past year I have mourned the cessation of my youth. In a few quick years I went from not "believing" in sunscreen to toting it around in my purse. Yes, even in February. In those short years I went from an auspicious college-aged kid who stayed out late to a stroller pushing mom that goes to play groups for a good time. I feel like maybe I got boring really quickly.
I need to fret less about my impending 30 and just eat up the last months of my 20s. Ten years ago age 30 felt like a deadline. It seemed like the age at which I should have life just about figured out. It seemed like the age where I would be almost finished formulating myself. It seemed like the age where I would have found the secret to life and no longer keep my makeup in a zip-lock baggie.
But then again maybe turning 30 is a lot of what I've always wanted. In the back corner of my head I can see a clear picture of me, the a 30 year old, classy me. Yes, she's in her 30's but she's more composed than the Danielle of my 20s. Her kids are robustly healthy and impossibly cute. She's a marathoner and physical therapist. She has a charming house with legitimate (yes, you know what I mean) furniture and clothes that are even trendy. And at no point in the week do her eyebrows or laundry get out of control.
I guess it seems altogether like a decent trade- crows feet, a little more joint pain, and a slower pace in exchange for more stability, and less spontaneity. Fair enough.
4 comments:
Amen sister! Except for the physical therapist part. That's not a part of my own life plan bit all the other stuff sounds great. I am 30 in a couple months and have been thinking about similar things. And now I'm going to give you a book recommendation. What Alice Forgot. She falls at the gym and hits her head and forgets the past 10 years of her life and so she thinks she's still younger and pregant with her first baby and really it's 10 years later. my friends making a decade age change or eyeballs deep in parenting have enjoyed it also.
thanks for the book recommendation! You're great Jenny!
hey...just to chime in as a more seasoned woman! I am still just getting life all figured out and formulating who I am... it is all such a process with so many unexpected turns! I love reading your thoughts and insights. You are a very gifted lady in so many ways!!
xo
Both my eyebrows and laundry get out of control every week-- and I don't even have children to tend to! You are a wonder woman.
Love you guys!
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